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Mr. So Wrong by R.C. Stephens–Review

Mr. So Wrong is the second book in the series, but can be read as a standalone. We first meet Al in Mr. All Wrong, which is about his friend, Colton.

Albert Walsh the Third sounds like such a pretentious name, but truth is he’s just Al. Al is a guy who gave up that wealthy, snobby, privileged life a decade ago. The only remaining person that he talks to is his younger sister. Mr. So Wrong picks up where book one left off. His best friend has found love and is moving on, while Al is happy for him, this makes him unemployed and slightly lost. With nothing in sight, he plans a trip to spend Christmas with his younger sister at the family cabin in Colorado. Let’s just say his Porsche is not equipped for near blizzard like conditions and ends up in the ditch.

Samantha Belmont is a little girl who is lost and running away from life, despite, never leaving her hometown. Sam had made a promise to her mother when she was nine years old to make it out of their small town and find a good man to love. Here we are present day, where Sam is twenty-three and working side by side with her father on the ranch. Sam is coming home during the middle of the snowstorm and finds Al in the ditch. He is unconscious and freezing cold, so she takes him home (the home she shares with her father). It is the quintessential story of country girl and city boy.

Mr. So Wrong is a perfect balance of second chance romance among two damaged people, emotionally intense histories, new love/beginnings and breaking down the emotional barriers. Ms. Stephens wrote a book that was gripping, astonishing and outright beautiful. The plot and storyline was well done, as was the dual POV (past/present). The only negative I have is with the epilogue. If you are an epilogue whore, like myself, I was just plain wanting more. I felt that it was kind of lacking. Other than that, I truly do recommend this book.

“Even great men fall. I made fun of my best friend as he was falling hopelessly in love with his girlfriend. It was a jackass move I know. I’d been in love before but love was for fools. I promised myself I’d never fall in love again which means right now with Sam I’m totally screwed.”

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Crux Untamed (Hades Hangman #6) by Tillie Cole–Review

Crux Untamed was one of my most anticipated reads! I knew when I read the blurb that I just had to read it. I was curious from the beginning of the dynamic duo of Cowboy and Hush. Cowboy’s outgoing personality and Hush’s calm and quiet demeanor pulled at me making me wonder what was going on underneath. As soon as I heard that Sia was Ky’s sister, I knew I had to have more.

This book…(smh)…man, this book was everything. It destroyed me in the best way possible. It was dark, gritty, uncomfortable, emotional (totally cried here), passionate and the underlying storyline was magnificent.

“Kärleken ser inte färger. Bara rena hjärter.” 

(“Love doesn’t see colors. Just pure hearts.”)

Our three leads are Sia (Elysia), Cowboy and Hush and I LOVED them. They stole my heart and had no concerns with giving it back. Prior to reading, Cowboy and Hush had me intrigued equally. While reading though, Hush, massacred my existence and slowly became my #1 go to guy of the series. Don’t get me wrong, I have other favorites, but Hush will always have an extra piece of my heart.

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Tillie Cole mentioned that Jesse Williams, Kellan Lutz and Amber Heard were her inspiration for the characters. She did a pretty spot on job with description and transferring that into reader visualization.

“Three sets of blue eyes, all different. All who have walked different paths…All who have seen the full spectrum of life-the good, the bad, and the ugly.”

Sia is the sister to Ky, VP Hades Hangman. When she was seventeen years old, she got into some trouble and drew the attention of Juan Garcia (Mexican cartel). Ky and Styx (Pres of Hades Hangmen) had to go in and kidnap her back. Since this time, she has been hidden on a farm where she happily works with horses, as her own form of equine therapy. Unfortunately, she is indirectly found by Garcia.

“You’re mine, rosa negra. And I’m never letting you go.”

The underlying story and bond between Cowboy and Hush is beautiful, shocking and outright emotional. These twenty-six-year-old Cajun twosomes hale from an incredibly small town in Louisiana. Through much bad blood and incredibly hard to imagine horrific circumstances, they meet and have created a bond so strong, that nothing will destroy it!

Despite the seriousness and emotionally heaviness of this book, Viking and Ky brought forth some much needed instances of laughter. Despite being distraught and tormented, Ky mentioned something that just had me laughing with tears.

“It’s the thought of those fuckers double-teaming you that makes me see red…You’re my baby fucking sister. Now you’re in bed with not one but two brothers, who quite honestly could be fucking each other too. All I see in my head whenever you three are mentioned is a conga line of pussy, cocks and assholes. It’s fucking with my head!”

Truthfully, in all out honesty, Crux Untamed, is one heck of a book. You have Sia, Cowboy and Hush each with their own individual issues/storylines, but then you bring together three different people and meld those storylines into an incredibly heart-wrenching, yet tragically beautiful story, you simply end up with perfection. Everyone has their own very specific role within this threesome, it was exquisite to read. Sia is a broken woman, Hush is a damaged and lonely man, while Cowboy is the free-spirited glue that holds them all together. It was striking to read of them evolving and changing and finding peace within themselves and their souls. A truly impactful story with much greater depth than two men and a woman in a relationship.

“I couldn’t have been prouder to wear the Hangmen patch. Because they were my family…After fighting my demons for so long, I let myself accept the truth. I belonged.”

Bravo to Tillie Cole for another well done Hades Hangman!!

Live Free. Ride Free. Die Free!”

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Secret Lucidity by E.K. Blair–Review


I think it’s fair to say at this point, that it’s known I have a SERIOUSLY INTENSE secret love with the student-teacher relationship trope. (It in no way is related to the fact that I come from a long line of teachers in my family😉). E.K. Blair wrote an incredibly thought-provoking, insanely emotional (be prepared to have copious amounts of tissue nearby), heart-wrenching book, that is full of emotional turmoil and upheaval.

Cam is a seventeen-year-old girl who is thrust into adulthood too early in life. Yes, she is seventeen, almost a senior and off to college soon, but literally everything changes in the blink of an eye. While taking on the weight of the world on her shoulders, she hasn’t been able to fully grieve her situation and doesn’t know how to deal with all the inner pain that she is feeling. Unfortunately, this leads her down the only path that she has found to experience relief. The depression, hurt, pain and feelings of being unloved just roll of the pages with Cam.

For some inexplicable reason, she feels an immense draw towards her swim coach/English Lit teacher, David Andrews. They are both grieving and can tell that the other truly does understand where they are coming from and what they are going through. This immediate chemistry, doesn’t mean this is a quick to the point relationship. This is a slow burn relationship with speed bumps.

Even though I love this type of genre, there can be some books that leave me wanting or feeling yucky when it comes to an underage heroine. SL WAS NOT that type of book. I was feeling everything that Cam was, including the phases of her relationship with David. Complete perfection! Where I had a hard time, reading was on how Cam dealt with all these negative emotions/situations in her life.  I just felt for her and wanted to say, ‘No, you don’t have to do that’. Alas, she did and it was heart-wrenching to read her struggle with this. (Sorry, but I kept this rather vague so you also get to develop and acknowledge all she’s going through as it happens.)

“You were always the one thing that felt like home to me, and even though I found a way to exist without you, a part of me has always been lost–.”

Let’s talk about Cam and David. Oh my gosh, they have a story like no other and I was LOVING it. ❤ The love that they experience was very true and sweet. Yes, there were some hot and fiery times, but overall, they had developed themselves as one unit. They had to go through some extremely difficult times as well as overcome a big age gap. Personally, I didn’t have a problem with an age gap as big as it was. I have personal experience with a couple that has a big age gap (not me) and it doesn’t bother me. I guess you could say I’m immune to it. On a side note: I will say, that some books with couples of the same gap were annoying and unbelievable, so I think it all depends on the author and character situations. In this situation, Cam is older than her years and David is younger than his. Both are extremely deep characters with some experience under their belts in terms of life situations.

“A part of me wanted to die before you came along. My world was so dark, and then there you were, and I swear to God, David, you saved me. You opened me up and showed me a love I felt so undeserving of, but you gave it to me anyway.”

E.K. Blair wrote an emotional story that hits hard and doesn’t leave any punches. She took me on a wild ride that dealt with some extremely tough topics. This was a ride that I was happy to experience and didn’t want to get off. I was left hanging for a few days that left me in limbo while I processed my thoughts. A truly worthwhile read.

“I’d crawl beneath his ribs if I could. Press my lips into the tissue of his heart. Swim in the narrow of his bones. I’d give him the very same if he asked for it. I’d cleave myself open for him, force him to take all of me, because that’s all I crave—to be his—only his, because in my soul, he’s mine.”


Gods and Monsters by Saffron Kent–Review

cover.jpgFirst of all, look at this gorgeous cover. This is a true representation of Abel (Hero).

Saffron Kent is a new to me author, but I was pleasantly surprised with this debut author and book (at least to me). Gods & Monsters is considered an ‘unconventional’ coming of age book. It encompasses Evie and Abel as they traverse young adulthood from age 12-19 (Evie) and 14-21 (Abel). They are two people who feel an immediate connection with each other, but are unsure what these feelings mean and what to do about them. They need to battle many different issues in their tiny town of Prophetstown, Iowa to grow this childhood romance into real life romance and love.

Saffron did a phenomenal job of entwining the story of Adam and Eve as it relates to Evie, Abel and the families of their tiny town. Prophetstown is very backwards and set in their ways. Ms. Kent didn’t hold any punches when she decided to talk about some heavy topics. These include: Nature vs nurture, social stigma, the right to love, religion influence, as well as when the parent comes from an authoritarian mindset using negative reinforcements of behaviors that they don’t feel are right. Nature vs nurture is examined throughout Gods & Monsters. Is the child a product of their environment or is the environment a product of the child? Simply said, is the child formed from the environment or from the parents?

As with some cities/small towns, there are always gossips and folklore/tales that are being spread among the gossips and different generations.

“There are two things that define this town: our church, the tallest and oldest building, and the legend. The legend of David Adams and Delilah Evans.”

Evangeline Elizabeth Hart is a longtime resident. Even at the age of 12 she is a free spirit. She tries to ‘fit in’ with her surroundings, but she has always been a tad different. She loves her father with her whole heart and even though her mom is strict, she still respects her (since that is what every good little girl/boy should do).  Her favorite place in the whole world is her treehouse. Her father built it and painted it for her. It’s her little sanctuary from the world when her mom is having a bad day or the busybodies of the town are gossiping and interfering in her life too much.

One day, she and her best friend, Sky, are returning from the treehouse when they notice a truck pulling up into the only other house on their road across the street. Peter Adams is the first to get out. Peter, although he is nice to Evie, he is well disliked from the community, because of his last name. Next, the passenger door opens and out steps,

“’A tall boy with loose and wrinkled clothes.’…’His hair’s all messy, touching his eyebrows. It flickers in the wind that suddenly seems to have picked up. It’s blond.’…’a dirty sort of blond.’”

Evie is called into the house by her mother as this point, but just before going inside she turns around.

“I turn back and find him standing at the same spot. He’s only an outline from here. An outline with golden hair and black t-shirt, and a backpack against the orange sky.”

Poor Abel is an orphan at age fourteen and is taken in by his Uncle Peter Adams. As mentioned earlier, the Adams name is a blemish on the pristine Prophetstown society. Imagine yourself at fourteen, going to live with a relative who really doesn’t want you, but takes you in anyway. You are in a town that despises you, because of your last name and who your parents were. The one redeeming thing is that the first thing you see is a blonde haired, blue eyed girl in a dress with dusty legs and feet, whose hair is loose and tumbling, blowing all over the place. Yep, our dear Abel was hooked. Big problem though is her mother (like the rest of the town) hate him and instruct the little girl to not talk, look or engage him in anyway. Somehow, they find each other at the treehouse and the rest is history.

Remember that legend of David and Delilah? The legend goes that David and Delilah fall in love and get pregnant. The town was going to separate both by locking them up and sending them away. They took it upon themselves to create their own future and run away together. Big deal, right? Wrong, you see Delilah was David and Peter’s first cousin. Due to all the bias’s and stigma’s in the town, this was considered immoral and sick.

“And that baby? People called it an abomination. The devil’s spawn. They said only monsters could be created from a love like David and Delilah’s.”

Fast forward fifteen years…that baby has returned home. You need to read this book to see if history repeats itself? Does Evie and Abel become those scorned from society or do they change society?

Overall, this was a FANTASTIC book. The middle section took me on a journey that I didn’t see coming. Let’s just say that it took their relationship on a completely different trajectory that I was expecting. Despite this, I still loved her writing style, character interaction’s and depth of the characters. Gods and Monsters is a little on the long side, but pacing and storyline were well executed. Saffron Kent has earned a continued reader in me and I can’t wait to read about Sky (possibly).

“Our kind of love. A love that is the stuff of legend. A love that people will write stories about years after we’re gone.”

Favorite quotes:

“Abel Adams is not a god. He’s not a monster, either. He’s human. He is what others made him.”

“He was a boy who loved, with everything that he was.”

 “The minute you turn eighteen, I’m picking you up, throwing you over my shoulder and driving you down to the nearest courthouse so you can say I do.”

“’One day I’m gonna kiss you in front of the whole world and if they don’t like it then f@ck them.’ I read the frustration in his tone, the suppressed anger, and it hurts my heart. No none should be made to hide their love. No one. It’s too pure, too beautiful to ever keep hidden. I caress his pulsing jaw. ‘Okay. Kiss me at our wedding, then. In front of the whole world,’”

5 stars

5 “Treehouse Fun” stars

The Devil’s Match by Amo Jones–Review

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My first foray into the world of Amo Jones was with, The Silver Swan. I was instantly addicted to her writing style and ability to suck you into her written fantasy world. Since then, I have also read Razing Grace part 1 and 2 and absolutely loved it. Fast forward too, The Devil’s Match. Amo Jones did not disappoint.


The Devil’s Match picks up where Razing Grace, part 2 ended. Ella is in the process of packing up to head off to college at NYU. She is the sister, aka “The Princess of Darkness” 😈, to Raze/000/The Executioner, Miles (not by blood, but by choice) and Beast, the International president of The Devil’s Own MC. In the meantime, Frost has gone Nomad while still being a part of The Devil’s Own. There are reasons as to why Frost is going Nomad and may be gone up to six months.

“One Mississippi, two Mississippi, three Mississippi….”


Let me start by saying this book was just freaking phenomenal. I am utterly amazed at the dark and twisty mind of Ms. Jones and the ability she has to fully engulf oneself in her dream world. She never disappoints. With every book of hers that I have read, she just leaves me shredded to point where I am still thinking about it days after. There are so many twists and turns, highs and lows and flat out, no they didn’t!! Every word said about this book, could be a potential spoiler, so with that said, let’s keep this short and spoiler free. 😉

Frost is a pleasantly delightful psychopath🤨. He is so deranged, yet so smooth and sweet talking it made him an intriguing character to read. I loved him, yet hated him for some things he did. I loved his crazy a@@ and his overly aggressive roughness. Totally hated him sometimes for the way he treated Ella, but in reading its part of his ‘growing’ process. In the end, I LOVED Frost, because of the ending with Ella.

Ella was a surprising character. At the end of Razing Grace part 2, she is perceived as this soft, delicate little flower not to be disturbed or messed with. Well, hello, Ella in The Devil’s Match. Initial emotion while reading about her was shock and then a ‘hell, yeah’! I loved reading about this side of Ella. I always felt that something was off with her and there was more to it, than having three overprotective brothers trying to save her from the darkness and evil of this world.

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When talking about Frost and Ella as a couple, they were far from perfect, yet as with any couple it is a process. They are a match made in psychotic heaven!! 💑

Gah, there is so much that I want to say, but I WILL NOT spoil it for anybody. There were so many good times, bad times, shocking times and even some, ‘Hell yes, you go girl’ times, that made The Devil’s Match a knockout hit. Now, I will warn you, this will not be for everybody and that’s ok. It’s dark, erotic, a complete and total mind f@ck, yet so dang good. If this doesn’t sound like your cup of tea and you don’t enjoy, just know this is as a heads up for the faint of heart. However, if you’re feeling like stepping out of your comfort zone box, pick up an Amo Jones book.  Her writing is completely above and beyond!! 5 fist pumping ‘hell yeah’ stars!!! I am so excited to read about Miles, Blake and Willow next. Can’t wait!!

“That kind of love, the kind you both have, doesn’t die. It doesn’t even fade. It remains and intensifies, but never dies.”

5 stars


Combust by K. Bromberg–Review: A slow burn that will leave you wet with tears

Ms. Bromberg wrote a fantastically heartwarming and emotionally heavy book with Combust. Sometimes it truly isn’t about what’s on the outside, but also what’s on the inside.
Grady Malone is a hero among hero’s. He’s deep, emotionally cutoff and suffers some massive amounts of regret and grief. He doesn’t truly understand his worth among society, community and his family, not to mention his own self-esteem. He comes across as hard edged and displays moments of a-holeness, but this is just a cover to what’s truly inside.
Dylan McCoy is refreshing. She’s a lost girl/woman in the world after walking in on her boyfriend with another girl. She is the oval that’s trying to fit in the circle shape that is known as LA. She can fine tune herself to meld in, but that isn’t her true self. She’s a feisty, talented songwriter trying to make it in LA, where everywhere she looks she sees skinny, big chested blondes (like the one her boyfriend was caught with).
‘Music is my therapy, so I offer the same to him.’
Dylan needs to get away to re-coup and center herself, while she works on writing songs for her loser ex. Yep you read that right, she is contractually obligated to fulfill one more album with the douche before she can officially part ways. Her brother has a friend that is a firefighter, who is willing to let her stay while she works through her issues/songs. Her brother feels safe with allowing her to stay at Grady’s, since she hates firefighters (you have to read the book to know why😉). Grady and Dylan never expected to find each other/the other half to make them whole, while staying in the same house. As you can imagine, sparks fly in the most unbelievable way. This is a slow burn romance where they find that the other is the balm that they need to fix what’s wrong with themselves.
‘I look at him often as I work through the lyrics. Words about love and loss pass over my lips, run through my head, and are jotted down, and yet, he’s the one I keep looking for a reaction from. His fingers thrumming to an imaginary beat he hears in my work the only response he gives.’
Grady stole my heart and a little piece of my soul. Words can’t fully describe how wonderfully written he was. Imagine, this big, beautiful man in his turnout gear with eyes that burn bright, yet grief weighs heavy on his soul as a visible blanket. Oh man, he is just perfection. Dylan is truly the yin to his yang. Grady makes her feel valuable and wanted. Slowly her self-worth and self-esteem begin to grow and this is evident in everything she does.
If you are looking for a heartwarming, emotionally filled, slow burn romance that has a strong hero (despite what he is keeping inside) and an adorably invigorating heroine, this book is for you! You will truly feel ‘all the feels’ and fall in love like I did!
‘Because love is rarely pretty. It’s messy. It’s complicated. It’s often ugly, but that’s how you know when it’s right. Pretty doesn’t always last. It’s the things you have to work at that make the reward that much sweeter.’


Midnight Blue by L.J. Shen–Review: Run, don’t walk, One-click, don’t sample this book. OUTSTANDING!!


HOLY FREAKING PHENOMENAL can Leigh write!!!! Where to start on this one, there are a million positive thoughts that are flying through my mind right now. How about on a side note. Look at this freaking book cover. Is it not beautiful?! Not only can she write, but she has great book covers.

‘Alex Winslow was beautiful in a way storms were—only from afar. Just like them, he had the power to sweep and ruin you, two things I was too busy surviving to entertain.’

I am in LOVE with Alex Winslow. He is a rock star, who is beautifully broken and flawed, yet is a sweetheart when you get down to his core (which you need to dig very far to get too). He has many demons that are screaming down his neck to which he is fighting and trying to outrun. Due to this, he has done some things that he’s not proud of. One happens to be becoming an addict. His addictions have really hurt him, as a person and an artist. He has been to rehab already and is trying to remain sober, despite all the temptations around him. He is rude, a jerk and a nasty self-centered a-hole! Despite all this, I flipping LOVED him! Gosh, there’s just something about a misunderstood asshole! 😍

‘Soooo. Spill it, girl. What’s he like?’…’Disgusting, Gorgeous, Rude, Sexy, Screwed-up. Witty. Broody, Unbearable. Trouble. Trouble. Trouble. Alex Winslow was all those things and more.’

He is about to embark on a world tour and has been assigned a babysitter. This babysitter is tasked to keep him clean and sober. She is to report back to his management team if she notices anything amiss with him. Sounds extreme, but this almost thirty-year-old has a lot riding on remaining sober. First and foremost, his good name, reputation and his own soul. Secondly, if he remains sober and has a killer tour, his second album can be and will be more to his liking and not so ‘manufactured’.

‘Welcome to my mess, New Girl. It’s a bumpy ride from here on out.’

Insert, Indigo ‘Stardust’ Bellamy, aka…Indie. She is as unique and breathtaking as her name and blue hair. She is sweet, pure, puts people first and loving. They are two souls that shouldn’t make sense together, yet somehow do. She is an incredible heroine in this book. She is strong and doesn’t take crap from anyone (especially Alex), yet is completely unselfish and loving. Her one and only fault is her loyalty and need to take care of those that are closest to her and her heart. I, honestly, don’t know if I would have put up with her brother as much as she did. Because of her loyalty, she needed this job.

‘I needed this job like Mark Wahlberg needed to show his real junk in Boogie Nights.’

This book is everything!! Asshole male…. check; sweet yet strong female…check; Rockstar romance…duh, check; a story that has so many intertwining layers, the book should be called ‘The Midnight Blue Onion’…check; hot romance…double check; drama and angst…check; emotions that are so strong you find your heart in your throat…triple check. The only thing I wish I had…. MORE ALEX and INDIE!!😢

Leigh did everything right in Midnight Blue from plot, storyline and pacing, to writing remarkable characters that spring to life and include you on that roller coaster of emotions. She made me love Alex and his Rockstar romance!!

“When I look at you, I see something broken that isn’t worth fixing. And you look at me like I’m a cheap thing to replace the expensive one that’s been stolen from you. See, we’re all vases. And you’re the one scattered on the floor, shattered beyond repair. So I’ll let someone else pick you up. It’s really that simple. Have fun with your temporary glue.”